We were outside enjoying the nice weather the other day when Shelby pulled out her brother's old scooter. You know, the Razor scooters that were all the rage a couple of years ago. It was a "have to have" back then and now it is so rusty it is hard to unfold it. That thing has seen one too many rainstorms.
Shelby got me to unfold that thing and she tried to ride it. She said, "Mama, just hold me up till I learn how to this on my own." While I was helping my soon to be 7 yr old trying to learn how to ride her big brother's scooter, I started thinking about what she had said.
Of course, she just wanted help learning to ride the scooter, but I saw something deeper in the statement she made. See, my job as a mother is to do exactly what she said. It is my job to hold her up, spiritually, physically, and emotionally, until she is able to do it on her own.
That is one of the reasons I decided to home school. We have good days and bad days~~sometimes we have VERY BAD days~but ultimately I want to do the job God has called me to do~be her Mother.
I know that God knows my heart and He knows that I want to do right by my children. I know that He doesn't call all mothers to stay at home or home school their kids. I DO know that He has called me to do both of those things and when I get to where I feel like I can't take it anymore~~He's there to cheer me on and tell me I CAN do it.
Do I get scared sometimes? Absolutely! Sometimes it is very overwhelming to home school and know that I have people looking to see if I fail or succeed. I just keep reminding myself it is not the world's standards I have to live up to. It's my Saviour's and He even helps me succeed~unlike the world.